Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Trinkets from Jesseca's brain.

Seeing as no amazing inspired post has come to my brain’s drive-thru window lately,
here are some of the things that are occupying that part of my anatomy:
(I actually wrote this yesterday, so when I say “today” in the following text,
I mean “yesterday”.  Did I just blow your mind?)

  • I desperately want to do some outfit posts, you know, go to some cool spot on the town and shoot away at some cute outfits but (a.) I don’t have a camera at the moment and (b.) I need a photographer/model/partner to assist me.  Any takers?
  • Easter was Amazing!  With a capital A.  From the outreach on Saturday, to church, the FOOD, the movies, and the long walk with Dad on Saturday.
  • Making important decisions for one’s future is rather taxing.  Especially when you want to stay in His will but you just know that His will doesn’t quiiiite match up yours.  But His plans always work out in the end, don’t they?  Who knew.
  • Yesterday morning, ZoĆ« was apparently so hungry that she decided to inhale her food.  I went outside to see why she was taking so long and discovered that her largely-unchewed kibble was in the grass.  Lovely.  You probably didn’t want to know that.
  • Yay for singing the national anthem at your graduation!
  • California trip was cancelled.  But I miiight be going to D.C. in September… AHHHH!  People!  Do you realize how cool that’d be?!!  Just don’t ask me in September if I went, because currently this idea is still just an idea…no plans yet.
  • Ever shot a rifle before?  That might be in my near future as well!
  • I made cinnamon rolls last night, all the way down to the cream cheese frosting.  They were good, but next time I’ll make them with yeast dough instead of just cheating with baking mix.
  • Today I went to Starbucks twice.  Same one.  With mostly the same people.  Long story.
  • Later, Mom tried to find this little BBQ place downtown, but after an hour making countless turns and sitting at a zillion red lights with no luck, we went to Sonic.  In the bottom of our onion rings, there was one lonesome tater tot—it must’ve really needed someone to eat it.

If you are reading this, go have a great day. :)



Wednesday, April 20, 2011

This calls for brownies!

Last night, I officially invented my very first recipe.  We're talkin' fudgey, yummy, chocolatey BROWNIES!  Baking is my #1 stress-reliever and yesterday seemed to be a fitting time to whip up a batch of these incredible confections.  What girl doesn't go nuts over brownies?!
     I thought I'd share my brand-new recipe with y'all (there I go with the y'alls)...now I can be a published recipe author and you can cure your hankerin' for chocolate.  (By the way, they taste SO much better after 24 hours.  My recommendation: eat one straight out of the oven, then forget they exist until the next day.  You'll be glad you waited.  Mmmm.)

Fudge Brownies

1/2 c. cocoa
1/2 c. butter
1-1/2 c. sugar
3 eggs (or 4 egg yolks...I hear that makes them super fudgey)
1/4 c. warm brewed coffee
1 c. flour
1 tsp. vanilla
1/2 c. chocolate chips

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.

Spray a 9x9 pan with cooking spray, then line with parchment paper.  You'll want to have one strip laying one way, then layer the other one on top of that, covering the entire pan.
 
In a saucepan over medium heat, melt the butter and cocoa together.  Carefully cook for a minute or two, until mostly smooth.  Set aside to cool slightly.  In a large mixing bowl, beat eggs and sugar with a fork.  With a wooden spoon, stir in cocoa mixture, coffee, and vanilla; add flour, mix well.  Fold in chocolate chips.

Pour into prepared pan and bake for 25-30 minutes.  Check them with a toothpick...underbaked makes for fudgier brownies than overbaked.  Just sayin'.

Cool on a rack for 5 minutes, then lift out of pan and slice into 16 brownies.  Separate and let cool completely.

THEN, wait for a WHOLE day until they've "cured" to perfection.  I hope you like my recipe!  But don't tell me if you don't.  (Wink wink.)


Saturday, April 16, 2011

Choir colors are my friend.

Choir colors are my friend.  In case there’s any confusion, I am speaking (typing…?) that in faith.
Now don’t get me wrong…I LOVE being in choir.  But it does require sacrifice.  Of what kind, you ask?  Sacrifice of personal fashion preference.  It means being (quite) limited in the outfit choices for Sunday mornings, just when I’m getting on a roll with this whole “defining-Jesseca’s-style” thing.
Uhhh, two words:  HOW PATHETIC.
Am I really complaining about how I have to wear the same black skirt just about every Sunday morning because I’m in choir and I can’t wear anything I want to for the ENTIRE morning?  Yeah, I know…horror of horrors.
 Allow me to give me a reality check.  There is a country that is a few big splashes away from my home country that has experienced such true horrors that I have absolutely zero reason to be complaining about anything.
Besides that, there are people I pass everyday on the street who don't just lack money and food, but also have no home, no friends, no life, no hope.  While I sit back on my heels pleading with God to show me who I am in Him, He’s quietly telling me, “Jesseca, look around you.  These people need someone to show them the kind of love that doesn’t judge, doesn’t hate, and isn’t conditional, and the kind of love that I alone give.  Who I am in you is your identity…so get your eyes off yourself and throw yourself into My heart.”
I love Him.  I don’t like how it feels when He reprimands me, because chastening is never fun.  (Hebrews 12:11)  But I would rather be spanked now and behave tomorrow than enjoy the rewards of the flesh today and be miserable later.  Wouldn’t you?
So be yourself…trust God…and even when you’re asked to wear black and gold for choir when you don’t have a single speck of gold in your closet, smile and give God all the glory.
Oh, and have a sweet, lovely weekend.





Tuesday, April 12, 2011

It's all about the fashion.

Shhh…I have a secret.  I’m supposed to be doing homework right now.  But I have something burning a hole somewhere deep within the creative juices of my brain that I gotta get out and share with y’all.  (By the way, if a “y’all” pops out here and there, get used to it; I’m moving to good ol’ Oklahoma soon.  And my vocabulary probably won’t have too hard of time finding its way around Tulsa.)
Okay, so…I love fashion, right?  But being a fashionista typically requires a wide variety of clothes and accessories and shoes and jewelry so that you can always have a fresh, creative outfit for every day and occasion.  And although it’s nice to think of a closet filled with all manner of lovely things, a well-stocked wardrobe costs…well, money.
I don’t know about you, but I still haven’t discovered where the money trees grow, and having gobs of pretty things aren’t really on my top list of necessities.  I mean, as long as I’m wearing something, I’m good.  Thank you very much.
How to be both a penny pincher and fashionista?
Read on, baby!
     (Disclaimer: Have I ever been to fashion school?  Umm hmmm… Not for a day.  But here are my thoughts anyway.)


One: Please. Clean out your closet.
Sound stressful?  No, no Silly, it’ll be fun!  Take a couple of hours (or a half hour on several different days if it's really bad), pull out all your clothes from the closet and drawers, and sort them out.  You know those tops that have been hanging there for a year and never make it past your front door?  This is your chance: throw that thing in the Goodwill pile, man.  And embrace the funny feeling of freedom that hits you right after it disappears into the bag.
Make a few piles: Keep, Thrift, Maybe, and No Hope.  The latter being the waste basket, of course.
Keep: “Duhh. I wear this, like, twice a week.”
Thrift: “How many times did I wear this?  Once?  They should’ve told me it turns into a different shirt after washing.”
Maybe: “If I hemmed these…and added some sequins to the butt…”
No Hope: “If I wasn’t a nice person, I’d burn that right now.”
Get the point?
After you purge your wardrobe of offensives, fold everything nicely and hang according to color and item type.  Ahhhh!  Suddenly it will be a treat to open your underwear drawer each morning.


Two: Before you head to the mall, that Maybe pile is gonna get a work-over.
I’m telling you, people, this is where it gets fun.  If you never wear it anymore, you won’t mind taking a pair of scissors to it.  Really, you won’t.
Love the print, hate the cut?  Stitch a strip of complementarily-colored fabric to cover that awkward spot.  Bored silly of solid colors all the time?  Take that plain ol’ tee shirt and that obnoxious, too-old scarf and put ‘em together in some way that is you.  Never liked those heels anyway?  They didn’t make fabric paint for no reason, honey.
But let’s be honest.  Even our best intentions at being fashion designer for a day don’t always succeed.  So if at first you don’t succeed…throw it away.  (Or give it to Goodwill, if you think your design will look good on someone else, just not you.)


Three: Now you get to go to the mall.
So your closet is clean and organized and entirely rid of all the clothes that made you sick to look at.  Now it’s time to treat your closet to a makeover!
I do enjoy a good thrift store.  And I mean that sentence in the most literal sense.  Spending two-point-five hours in a packed second-time store with nothing to show for it but a couple awkward cardigans is really not worth the headache.  So look for a thrift store that typically carries promising merchandise and frequent it to your liking.  Just make sure the store isn’t overpricing their clothes, because then it won’t really be your time, money, and sacrifice to wear used clothing (even though there is nothing wrong with that).
When you have gotten your fill of trying to turn coal into diamonds, grab a girlfriend, a Starbucks, a budget, an idea of what you want to get and happily waltz your way to your favorite stores.  Whether it’s the mall, a boutique, or a resale store like Ross, always head straight to the clearance section, deciding which current styles suit your fancy on the way there.
If you can’t find any steals on the sale rack, indulge and try on everything that catches your eye.  When you put it on, notice how it feels, how it looks.  Don’t love it?  Don’t buy it.  You’ve probably heard it before, but you’ll like it the best in the store, so if you don’t love it there, it won’t look any better hanging in your closet.
When you do find something you absolutely love, consider your investment.  Thirty-five dollars for a tee shirt?  Mmmm…depends on how much you’ll wear it.  If it’ll last for a long time and you know it will end up on your body more than the floor of your closet, then maybe you should get it.  Five dollars for a pair of basic earrings you don’t love but will wear out of necessity?  Definitely.  Especially if you don’t already have something like it.
Just stay within your budget and remember that if something is cute and cheap, it doesn’t have to last for ten years.  Only splurge on the things you enjoy the most and will wear most often.


Four: A few more shoppy things to remember.
Take risks:  Try on things that you think are cute but aren’t really your style.  You may be one sweater away from redefining your style.
Jewelry:  This stuff will spruce up an outfit like none other, so it’s good to have a lot of it on hand to throw on when nothing else works.  Look for bold and basic pieces alike, and the cheaper the better.  If it breaks, at least you only spent 3 bucks on it.
Shoes:  Shoes ain’t the cheapest outfit items, so this is a hard one.  The best penny pinching tips for shoes: find and use coupons, shop at resale and discount stores, gravitate toward pairs that can be worn pretty universally.  But every girl needs one or two pairs that don’t go with much but are super adorable, right?
Other accessories:  Scarves, hats, purses, headbands, clips, pins, hose, belts, jackets, sweaters, glasses, shades…the list is endless!  A great place to find bunches of fun accessories is thrift stores.  You aren’t going to wear that cobalt-blue-and-magenta-striped scarf everyday, so it’s worth a little hole in the corner if you bought it for a dollar.  Also, you can go to craft stores, buy some pretty fabric and lace and buttons, and make your own accessories.  It's easy and quite foolproof.

Well!  Homework awaits me.

Happy shopping dearies!  Hope my thoughts sparked some ideas of your own.

P.S. If you have some little fashion tricks, do tell… I love reading your comments!

Monday, April 11, 2011

Search me. Know me. Lead me.

Oh goodness, it has been quite some time since I posted last!  Too, too long.  I’ve had several post inspirations, but none of them seemed quite right.  I’m not sure how this one is going to end, but I promise you that I will post it, no matter how it turns out.
A lot of things have been changing lately, and all in good ways.  But change so often requires a new mindset and a new identity (and if you’re lucky, a new wardrobe), and I’m sure you all are aware of how draining that process can be!  I have to laugh at myself though; I ask God to purge me of anything in me that is not of Him, but seem to forget that prayer 5 seconds after I say amen.
     Apparently God doesn’t forget, though, because over the next week, I’ll begin to see faults in myself that I have never seen before.  And of course, I don’t say, “OHH, THANK YOU JESUS!  You are cleansing me and I am LOVING it!”  No, no, that’d be too easy.  Instead I freak out and wrack my brain, trying to figure out why I don’t recognize myself anymore.  This is more like what I actually say: “JESSECA.  What is wrong with you?!  Why did you just say that?  Did you really just think that?  Geez, why can’t you just enjoy life?  WHAT.  IS.  WRONG.  WITH.  YOU??!”  That’s a true story, folks, and you heard it here first.
It’s funny how God works.  Recently, Sunday’s sermon or Wednesday’s topic is typically about the exact same verse I read the day before.  Last Wednesday is a prime example of that.  That morning, my mom and I had had a “discussion” (picture me squinting, sticking my chin out, and framing my face with two crunching peace signs as I say discussion) about how I always beat myself up over the things I don’t do instead of just letting go of my mistakes, resolving to make it better next time, and focusing on the things I did do right.  Guess what Wednesday night’s topic was on?  BAM.  You guessed it.  And after Pastor Nate’s teaching, guys and girls broke into discussion groups, like we usually do.  I haven’t a clue how the guys’ talk went, but ours turned into an hour-plus, heart-exposing, tissue-filled talk that was totally orchestrated by none other than the Holy Spirit.
Needless to say, I wouldn’t trade those precious moments with my dear friends for anything.  Yet although I dumped my heart out into their loving hands, I’m far from close to having perfected my habit of beating myself up over silly things.  Sighhh.  Sometimes I wish God could speed up the process and just get it over with already!  And as if one flaw-exposure wasn’t enough, it feels like every day reveals yet another character-building issue I need to deal with.
Remind me why I ever prayed that prayer again?
But I am seen by my Father.  He is nearer now than He was a week ago, because I am submitting myself to His correction.  Or at least trying to.  Sometimes I genuinely wonder how I’ll know when I’m submitted to Him.  How will I know I’m trusting fully in Him?  How will I know I’m following His path for my life even when I don’t have anything to show for it?
Again, I sigh.  I have truly been trying to just let go and trust the beautiful God who has turned my life upside down.  It’s a journey, but a beautiful one, just like Him.  I want to be beautiful to Him.  I want to be spotless before Him and closer to His heart than I am to anyone else.
Because I know that when I finally lose myself in His all consuming love, where nothing else matters, I will suddenly see what I was created for.

"Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting."
Psalm 139:23-24







Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Get ready to S M I L E.







What more have I to say!?  These are just perfectly adorable.

Actually, I do have something to say.  Know what I dream of?  I dream of having 100 followers!  So.  What can I do to make my blog more reader friendly?  What do YOU want to see when you read a blog?  Do tell!

Oh, and do pay a visit to the following blogs.  They have very much caught my eye recently and I'm sure they'll catch yours too.  Have a beautiful day!


(The last one is a blog of mainly wedding photos!  To see the most perfect wedding ever, look for Jacqui and Amir's wedding.  Seriously people, it's perfect.  Thanks to A Life Worth Living for introducing me to this lovely goodness of a wedding.)

Monday, April 4, 2011

"How am I gonna afford my new passion for fashion?"


 

                     

 

                                      


It's called indie spring fashion, kids, and I'm lovin' it.  (All pictures via.)  Socks with heels and a cute dress?  YES.